Friday, March 27, 2009

Spring has sprung!



We're doing okay around here! Quinn is doing great!
We're about to go on our vacation next week. I've been getting things in order to be gone for 9 or 10 days! This will be our first road trip with a baby!! We're very excited!!

I can feel myself coming to a place where I've got to get a handle on this food / weight thing. I feel like I went off the deep end months ago, and I'm finally coming to the surface, gasping for air & being hit with the reality of just how far down I am. Yuck.

It was Good Friday last year when I prayerfully stopped my 7 month long 100% raw diet. If you remember, I did that with a LOT of dread. All my fears have come to pass. I didn't focus on those fears, I just went with the flow, but here's where the flow has brought me! I think the past year has been strange. So many things were absolutely perfect & so very joyful, but my health has gone downhill, and my weight has risen steadily. It's such a contradiction! I feel a little lost in it all & a bit fuzzy headed about it.

So, I know myself well enough to know that after 10 days of eating out while on vacation I'm going to be quite sick of unhealthy standard American food. So, I'm coming full circle. Last year Easter was the day I started eating meat, sweet tea, etc. This year on Easter I start the road back to health. I'll be careful, since I'm breastfeeding and don't want to detox too drastically for Quinn's sake. But enough is enough & I am WAY past enough. I think at this point I've gained about 90 pounds in the last 12 months.

Christine, thank you for your faithfulness, hun! I honestly don't know if I would update even half as often as I do without a gentle nudge from you now and then!! Isn't that terrible!! Well, see, I don't know how to load photos onto my laptop, and I don't like updating without a picture!! But I saw your comment today & said just do it anyway! Stop putting it off. Christine is going to check in & see that same old post again!!!!! LOL! So I took a webcam shot right on the laptop!! Haha!When Greg gets home I'll have him do the upload so I can replace that first photo with some much better recent photos of my little guy!!

In the meantime, here's a webcam pic from when I first got my laptop last Feb and one taken today. Now, I look REALLY rough today, not even a shower! So you know I'm getting brutally honest with myself if I'm posting this photo!!!! Time to pull my head out of the sand and take a long hard look at what I've done to myself! That's not as easy as it sounds.



5 comments:

Singwilsons said...

First let me say, I love reading your blog, check it almost daily! (I first saw it on RFT)

But, I had to comment on this post because I can relate in so many ways! I had lost weight prior to my last pregnancy (4th baby) and felt really good about myself, and just plain felt really great. Found out I was pregnant, and I even maintained in the pregnancy only gaining 15 lbs, but it was afterwards that I gained about 30lbs.!!! Gasp! I am now unable to fit into most things that were too big after I gave birth! I stepped away from raw, feeling like I just didn't want to think about it anymore. Two yrs later, I am sick of feeling this way and ready to start feeling good again, and being able to move without groaning, ha ha.
It's a daily choice, and with God, we can do ALL things.
Praying He reveals Himself to you as you seek direction and next steps.
Blessings, Wendy (4forme on rft)

Ricki said...

(((hugs))) See if I was really a nice friend I would snap a pic of me from my laptop to make you feel better because I look hideous right now, but no, I can't subject the world to that ;)

I'm sorry you're not feeling good about yourself right now, you truly are beautiful inside and out. That being said I completely understand.

I'm sure God will lead you where you need to be.

I'm am 9 days without coffee as of today and I am STILL detoxing. I feel horrible. After I feel a little better I am going to go 50% raw. I know myself well enough to know I can't go the whole 9 yards, but you've inspired me to do better. Okay, you inspired me a long time ago, it's just taken me this long to get to it!

(((hugs))) Your little Quinn is beautiful by the way!

walnutty said...

Sunday
March 29, 2009
11:40 p.m.

YEAH!!!

Oh Resa, I can't tell you how happy I am to see your sweet face! Your children are just beautiful.

Thank you so much for checking in! I've been worried about you. Please do not be too hard on yourself...that will just sabotage your efforts to want to be healthy. You are so right in taking things slow, so you don't upset Quinn's digestive system. Every little bit of healthy food you put in your body will make you a little bit healthier.

I also so love to read your blog!

Please continue to check in with all of us that love you. We are more than just "readers" we can also be a support for you.

Remember who won the race! It was the slow and steady turtle not the fast rabbit that got off distracted. So, be the turtle...eat the healthiest you can each day and I know you will win the race!

Christine

Josi said...

Resa, you are gorgeous, before and after!! Your eyes still have the most amazing sparkle of love and joy and you are an amazing woman. Your family is healthy and obviously very happy and Quinn is beautiful as well. Hang in there and have faith in what you believe. We are here for support if you need us. After Deirdre is here, I hope to be able to go along on your journey (not the Raw one but the healthy one) right along with you.
Loves
Josi

Anonymous said...

Hi,

Haven't been around for a while, since I fell off the raw wagon and stopped posting on the "Obese Raw Foodists" thread on rawfoodtalk.com. I'm in the same boat as you (except I haven't ever gotten down as far as you did). I've been going on and off raw ever since, though I haven't had time for posting on rawfoodtalk.

The great thing about raw is that not only can you jump right back in, but (in my experience) over time, you end up feeling more and more turned off by junk food, and desire good raw food more and more. I'm determined to keep jumping right back on that raw wagon! I think we face a much harder transition than skinny or mildly overweight people. They just don't know how much our bodies want to cling to that fat. Raw is definitely the easiest, fastest, and most enjoyable way to lose weight...but easiest doesn't mean EASY! One morsel of cooked food, and the addiction is back with a vengeance. Fifty pounds later...you get the idea, lol. We should start a separate group for people like us.

Anyway, don't feel bad, just jump right in again. Remember, it's not just about us, we're doing it for our families, too. More energy and a happier attitude come with raw eating (for me, anyway). Not to mention, I think this is the way God intended for people to eat...stuff created by HIM, not us! ;-) Congratulations on your little boy, too.

-ManyLittles